.You Know You Want To.

i am so inspired by an old friends blog. what she writes in her blog have true depth, its sounds so sincere, so true; while most of my post (more of the recent ones) are just about things happening in my life, no feelings involved.

which eventually led me to this post..

(totally unrelated to anything)

why do i feel the way i do?

it has already been months.. its feels as tho its been such a long time, but then again it feels as tho everything just happened yesterday..

why do i care so much, when its so obvious that its not the same the other way round? he doesnt even care! believe it or not, i have been turned down soo many times, and yet i refused to budge..

persuading, hoping, praying.. all those ive done- directly, indirectly.. the irony..

why is it that when i come to this, i become shamelessly persistent?

i keep telling myself that i have forgotten, that i have so much more to life than this, that i can have a life of my own. it is true!

but deep inside, sometimes, i still hope for things i shouldnt..

the forbidden, wishful thinking..

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xoxo, yvonne.