.You Know You Want To.

i am SO super tulan with the expression of your face! >8O

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grr.

- 4.30 pm -

xoxo, yvonne.

my beautiful clock, nyaam.

its gonna look so pretty on the wall next yr! :)

- 2.31 pm -

xoxo, yvonne.

notice how much ive been blogging lately? stupid exams!

slept at 12 last night cos i was feeling so tired.. only to wake up feeling extremely horrible at 10 this morning..

ive never felt so affected by any exams before.. shopping didnt help, neither did sleeping nor eating.. nor talking and chilling..

where has all my confidence gone to? i remember feeling confident and good about myself, but that feels so long ago..

its like ive been sucked into this deep abyss of sadness/ helplessness.. im really at my lowest and most unstable state, at such a crucial time..

and so i called home.. talking to my mom really helped.. to hear her voice, i felt somewhat reassured.. and something my cousin melvin said about confidence..

so yeah, from now on, yvonne will no longer be so emotional and will try her best for the next 2 exams! :)

- 3.44 pm -

xoxo, yvonne.

and so exams has officially started- its halfway through already by the way.

never in my life have i screwed my exams so badly, and ironically, this is one of the more important ones to date.

econs paper was shit hard. like fcuking hard. like impossible hard. like wtf?

section A which comprises of 24 1-mark ques was okay, but sect B where they had 12 3-mark mcq was not. not forgetting crazy sect C in which 10 essay questions add up to 40% of the whole paper.

i practically guessed ALL the answers for sect B (save 6 which i actually attempted, and then still unsure if its correct) and left 2 ques from sect C blank.

and amazingly, i managed to keep my cool. before, during and after the exams. its like, somewhere in my mind, things will turn out the way they will..

but seriously, it was an extremely difficult and unfair paper, cos i dont see how some questions can be used to gauge our understanding and ability.

its like, it wouldnt make a difference if i studied more or less- the outcome would still be the same!

but im sure they'll skew the marks, no doubt about it.

and maths today was.. okay. you know theres like a good okay and a bad okay? well, this is more towards the bad okay. some ppl ie maths freaks found it easy (relatively). like wtf!!!! wanna smack them for "spoiling" the market.

3 hours was not enough man.

ahh and to think that i was aiming for first class! this is extremely disappointing!

sigh.

time to get some sleep then WORK FOR STATS AND LOGICS!

- 11.12 pm -

xoxo, yvonne.

someday :)

- 7.12 am -

xoxo, yvonne.

this is very, very depressing.

its now 2.31am and im planning to sleep soon.

whats wrong bout that? you might ask.

well, im actually not sleepy at all- im gonna sleep out of boredom. and basically, i woke up at 1pm this afternoon, had some lunch, studied for an hour plus, and proceeded to sleep from 5-9pm! attempted to study again after that, but was very unproductive + sleepiness kicking in.

yes, even after sleeping so much :((((

these few days are what i normally call the "crucial" pre-exam times, when one would normally study like crazy.

what have i been doing these few days? anything but that!!!!

AND STOP SAYING IM HARDWORKING ENOUGH! im not! us at nh seriously chilled more than anyone! dont believe you can always ask my partner(S) in crime ie wyng, clar, xiong and jun AND KIM.

(wait, kim will say im hardworking)

so minus kim.

in fact, im doing the things i dont do normally due to exams ie have lunch in chinatown, facebooking, chatting and even editing my blog (which i'll normally not do even when im free okay!)

like, wtf?

BAH!

please, tomorrow, please just let it be a more productive day!! i need it! :(

- 2.50 am -

xoxo, yvonne.

HEY GUYS!

ive added a sexy song to my blog, kindly intro-ed by maxy wings! :)

nice right nice right?? it got me high for some time :D

(psst: max, youre right- its damn addictive larrr!)

- 4.20 am -

xoxo, yvonne.

OMG JAY CHOU I LOVE YOUUUUUUUU!!

i swear im going to your concert the next time you come to msia.

<3<3<3

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haha, he's seriously the emo king lar! ;P

now for a shoutout to a certain someone -

I MISS YOU A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT :)

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shit man, my exams is on wed, and im posting several blogposts a day! apa nih! cant wait to go back whee!! :):)

xoxo, yvonne.

OMG!!!!

i was browsing thru my pictures, and guess what i found!

pretty right! haha, i cant rmb whos it with now!

theres an even nicer one lar, but shnt put it up in case of some misinterpretations ;)

arghghgh so many age-old pictures to share, but it'll hve to wait till after exams :)

toodles!

- 3.30am -

xoxo, yvonne.

some people will always talk..

they talk in a way to make themselves seem better,

and they talk in a way to change the someones opinion of another,

when they themselves are doing the deed.

so fake and annoying.

stop it lah.

- 8.30 pm -

xoxo, yvonne.

挑一张耶诞卡写上

满满祝福的话

地址写的是心底

你能不能收到它

天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗

这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大

有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念裏挣扎

你说会记得我还记得吗

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬

昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大

这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我

快向快乐出发

- 3.35 am -

xoxo, yvonne.

I CANT WAIT TO GO HOMEE!!!!!!!!!

omg, suddenly i jsut feel so estatic and high bout going home lalalala!

i even imagined running around the neighbourhood and touching my car just now ahah!

plus, i have a surprise in mind ;P cant wait cant wait. the one year - ok fine, 9 months - wait is gonna be SO worth it after all!

i miss SO SO SO SO many ppl. my family, my relatives, my 3 gfs, my asses, and the random ppl who matter a lot to me like yvc kim max waikwan + a lot lot lot la! <3>

WHEE! :)

on a more serious note, cant believe exams just lurking around the corner.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH! :( *scared*

- 12.41am -

xoxo, yvonne.

was talking to michelle today,

and sometimes i wonder..

will we be haunted by our memories forever?

- 2.59 am -

xoxo, yvonne.

i scare myself sometimes.

- 5.57pm -

xoxo, yvonne.

let me tell you a secret..

*

of late, i am actually suffering from an eating disorder..

its like, really serious and theres nothing much i can do to salvage myself from it..

:**(

*

bloody hell, i keep eating non stop! and im really into comfort eating now.. and all of a sudden i will have this food craving for anything UNhealthy.

like yesterday, i had another xxx of choc mcvities.

like right now, im having this sudden craving for crisp!

like, wtf? i wanna smack myself okay! im trying to study, but i keep thinkin of the crisp!

double wtf! firstly, its not even a person! how can i crave so much for a thing?

secondly, im still fcuking full from dinner.

im effing turning into a freaking food monster.

a fat one at that.

wait, arent all monsters fat?

fcuk.

*frustrated*

- 1.52am -

xoxo, yvonne.