here i am, after such a loooong time.. ;)
currently in the pmsy mood.. you know the times when it jsut doesnt feel right, when things dont go the way you want, when you feel like you ate too much yet cant control it, when you cant get something you really want..
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
and i cant elaborate, simply because i am feeling a myriad of emotions now..
dont believe?
im feeling whiny & mopy & disappointed yet relaxed & motivated, gluttony & bleah yet rather fit, dejected yet lucky & blessed, unsure & unconfident yet excited for the unknown..
..AND MANY MORE!
wtf is this okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sienness.. when i feel like this, i am super unproductive.. and this is considering that i am already unproductive most of the time. double blahhh.
maybe i need the long awaited holidays.. but then again, i dont feel that i deserve it as yet.. the thought of owning blush + prague + skiing cant seem to lift me from this cursed mood boo!
damn this reminds me of my first year all over.. juggling with too many things on hand and feeling/ being too ambitious only caused me not to put enough focus on those that require it..
on a random note, i realised that i eat more in london because im bored. not bored per se, but i-would-rather-eat-because-it's-more-interesting bored.. seriously! its enjoyable and i get to plan what to eat when i dont feel like doing other things ie studying.. this then leads to another chain of thought too long to explain here..
on a randomER note, i want to chat with you! where are you?
okay, i can so feel the negative aura taking over me! i want to go home! :*(
sigh!
-8.40pm -
currently in the pmsy mood.. you know the times when it jsut doesnt feel right, when things dont go the way you want, when you feel like you ate too much yet cant control it, when you cant get something you really want..
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
and i cant elaborate, simply because i am feeling a myriad of emotions now..
dont believe?
im feeling whiny & mopy & disappointed yet relaxed & motivated, gluttony & bleah yet rather fit, dejected yet lucky & blessed, unsure & unconfident yet excited for the unknown..
..AND MANY MORE!
wtf is this okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sienness.. when i feel like this, i am super unproductive.. and this is considering that i am already unproductive most of the time. double blahhh.
maybe i need the long awaited holidays.. but then again, i dont feel that i deserve it as yet.. the thought of owning blush + prague + skiing cant seem to lift me from this cursed mood boo!
damn this reminds me of my first year all over.. juggling with too many things on hand and feeling/ being too ambitious only caused me not to put enough focus on those that require it..
on a random note, i realised that i eat more in london because im bored. not bored per se, but i-would-rather-eat-because-it's-more-interesting bored.. seriously! its enjoyable and i get to plan what to eat when i dont feel like doing other things ie studying.. this then leads to another chain of thought too long to explain here..
on a randomER note, i want to chat with you! where are you?
okay, i can so feel the negative aura taking over me! i want to go home! :*(
sigh!
-8.40pm -
xoxo, yvonne.
